Delayed Gratification
Episode (2):
After a very bad [lived through] experience of certain titled leadership people over me. As a result, I failed a core mandatory course not one time but two times under one leadership. And under a second leadership, I failed another course one time. I was supposed to graduate in 2020 but because of failing 3 courses this sat me back 1 and a half years. I was in a (Delayed Gratification) stall. I faced inclusive social opinions and many other outward social factors that really affected me. I became depress and my drive to excel lessened. I felt depleted. I felt like a failure. I felt dump. I felt embarrassed and ashamed. These failures put me in a place where I had to practice self-regulation skills such as: patience, self-control, and outward impulse control. This place of (Delayed Gratification) was a lesson of character building that was a plus to my continued growth and maturity.
In Solving Problem
I took a semester break beginning of 2021 to collect myself and help my mental and emotional state. Now sitting in this (Delayed Gratification), I had to go inward for deep healing and forgiveness to myself. I grew in wisdom, acceptance., and greater trust in GOD. While I was in this (Delayed Gratification). In year 2021, I came back in belief of my faith. ready to fight through flight.
Story Solution
Subsequently, to no surprise, of my footwork put forth. Returning in second semester of 2021 with a new attitude. I fired my current chairman. Got a new dissertation committee with a new chairman. Lastly, changed my dissertation thesis to a whole new narrative. I excelled, passed all prior classes failed with another final course left to take. I completed my dissertation and the governing committee passed me. I achieved my doctorate degree In Organizational Leadership gaining my Ph.D. July of 2022. Foradded value (Delayed Gratification)in life is important because in struggles to achieve we learn very tangible lessons to live by. These lessons increase self-worth, self-drive, and self-belief. When in struggles to move slow is less stressful and to stay in a spiritually fit place to gain the prize affords a perceptible outcome. This is that additional value in (Delayed Gratification).